Long Two Weeks

Grandma sure hasn't been feeling good.  The pain medicine really helps but it also makes her sleep alot too.  One night when I went to see her, she had just finished eating supper in the dining room and had her eyes closed.  She wouldn't open them because she was hurting so much.  The nurse brought her meds, it looks like a tiny syringe and they squirt it in her mouth and it is immediately absorbed into her system.

These days our conversations consist of - "I love you grandma, I love you too hon".  Not much more than that.  She isn't combative like she was except she doesn't want her eye cleaned out, but she doesn't hit when bathing and cleaning her now.  She will let Mary help her with anything though.  She really likes Mary but Grandma's vision is so bad I wonder if she thinks Mary is a man and that's why she likes her so much - she's a Watkins girl.

The nurses get her up for meals and they were trying to keep her up a little bit but I told them to let her sleep if that's what she wants.  The important thing now is no pain.

I did have the - "it's ok to go live with the Lord if you want to"- conversation that hospice suggested.  I don't like having that conversation.

Most nights she is in a good mood and smiling more lately.   Rhea Lynn and I go out after work to put her to bed so we can check for bedsores - I sure don't want that happening.

Grandma is looking at a picture of Robert and I was telling her that he loves her so much and that he is so thankful she told him about Jesus and how to be saved.  (Grandma lead Robert in salvation prayer after church one evening).  When she gets cards I read them to her and we talk about them. 

This is Grandma's favorite place to be, she sleeps alot.  I don't blame her, these last two weeks have been so hard on her.  She is so tiny now, she eats but hospice said it doesn't nurture her body.

Daddy would appreciate your prayers for God's mercy for Grandma.